The Rainbow Bridge

There is a bridge connecting heaven and Earth
It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of the many colours.
Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land
of meadows, hill and valleys with luch green grass.

When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place,
Theis is always food and a warm spring weather.
The old and frail are made whole again.
They play all day with each other.

There is only one thing missing. They are not with
their special people who loved them on earth.
So, each day they will run and play, until the day comes
when one suddenly stops playing and looks up!
The nose twitches! The ears are up! The eyes are staring!
And this one runs from the group!

You have been seen,
and when you and your special friend meet,
you take him or her in your arms and embrace.
Your face is kissed again and again,
and you look once more into their eyes of your trusted friend.

Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together,
never again to be separated.


( Megan is still with me but having a bad day and dread the day i have to make this awful decision, i am sobbing now as i type)

Day three with a sick doggie

I have now slept for two nights downstairs on the sofa, Megan cannot attempt the stairs and hurts when she does.
She is still instable on her legs although has eaten her dinner and still likes the odd treat so nothing wrong with her appetite, however when she did attempt to go through french doors into garden ( small step) her back legs gave way but she picked herself up and carried on.
I hope and pray this is the medication on a high dosage making her drowsy and drunklike.
I will carry on sleeping downstairs on the sofa until i know she is ok to be on her own and not attempt to climb the stairs during the night or jump on bed and injure herself.
We all love our pets dearly and to see them deteriorate is nothing but the most upsetting thing i have ever had to go through in my life.
I think we are less emotional when we are younger as we had a lovely dog called Scamp, a miniature blue merl collie, he was almost 15 when dad drove him to the vets to be put to sleep, mum and me waved from the window but i remained tearless even when dad knew he was not coming home after he told us he was going for an operation.
So here i am now, an emotional wreck, worried about my little girl, wanting to help her get better but not knowing how too, wanting to try and make her walk a little but not knowing if it hurts too much.
I still massage her gently and rub her paws, i get down on the floor and give her lots of cuddles and kisses.
I will keep those of you who are interested in this updated via this blog and hopefully things will improve.
I am not an over religious person but i will admit to saying a prayer to God today for her recovery.

Bad Days

We all have bad days in our lives, days we would rather forget, things happen we regret and hope to make bettr.
Megan was limping badly two days ago, i left for my annual exams leaving her with Ged, when i came home she had not been out and was not well so we took her to the vets, she had a blood test, examination and a pain killer injection.
The following day i had m last day of airline exams and hated every minute of it, worrying all the time knowing she was at the vets under anaesthetic having x-rays done.
We picked her up at 6pm and she was all wobbly and sleepy, i stayed with her all night sleeping on the sofa so i could keep an eye on her.
Today, 27th September she seems a little better, her legs are still wobbly but she has eaten her dinner and drank some water, she has had her full dose of medication, 150mg of Rimadyl.
The only good thing that came out of yesterday was the my mum and dad arrived in Barcelona for their cruise,the flight was on time considering the ATC computer collapse, the hotel was lovely, they got ugraded from an outside cabin with window on deck 3 to a Balcony suite on deck 9. They deserve that and it took many emails to "people in the know!" to get them that upgrade.
I would have paid for it if i could afford it.
I did not tell them about Megan as no need to spoil someones holiday with your own personal problems as what can they do....nothing...exactly, so why tell them.
They are in Cannes today and the weather is good.

Secret Millionaire

I have just watched two hours of this channel 4 programme "Secret Millionaire" and i am humbled by these wealthy successful individuals who live in poor communities for up to two weeks and root out the local heroes, the people who keep their communities together, who look after the poorer and needy then present them with cheques to either fund their projects or money for themselves and their families.

It would make me so happy to be able to do this, i love to give and see joy it would bring to others but unfortunately i am not in a position to do this.

If you're reading this now and are wealthy, go out and do a good deed for today, maybe a poor mother struggling with children who need things she can not afford, or a poor older person who sit in one room as cannot afford to heat the house.

We sit in our homes with our own personal luxuries and take them all for granted, what about those less fortunate than ourselves.

I am going to think this one through, i may not be able to write cheques for thousands like they do on the tv show but i will help wherever i can, it make only be a small thing but for someone else it may mean the world.

Clinical Depression

After looking this up on the internet i discovered the following are common symptoms:-

Symptoms of Depression


ALTHOUGH it is often classed as 'mental illness', clinical depression often has as many physical symptoms as mental. The feelings or emotions that are depression symptoms actually begin to cause the physical effects. How this happens is a vital part of understanding depression and the symptoms that come with it.



If you are depressed at the moment some of the following symptoms may sound familiar:



You feel miserable and sad. ( often)

You feel exhausted a lot of the time with no energy .( sometimes)

You feel as if even the smallest tasks are sometimes impossible. (rare)

You seldom enjoy the things that you used to enjoy-you may be off sex or food or may 'comfort eat' to excess.( comfort eat often)

You feel very anxious sometimes. ( quite often)

You don't want to see people or are scared to be left alone. Social activity may feel hard or impossible.( not sociable at all right now)

You find it difficult to think clearly. ( seem ok here)

You feel like a failure and/or feel guilty a lot of the time.( failure , yes!!)

You feel a burden to others.( always)

You sometimes feel that life isn't worth living.( more recently)

You can see no future. There is a loss of hope. You feel all you've ever done is make mistakes and that's all that you ever will do. ( this is me)

You feel irritable or angry more than usual.( get angry more than i used too)

You feel you have no confidence.( sometimes do sometimes ok)

You spend a lot of time thinking about what has gone wrong, what will go wrong or what is wrong about yourself as a person. You may also feel guilty sometimes about being critical of others (or even thinking critically about them). ( always)

You feel that life is unfair.( very)

You have difficulty sleeping or wake up very early in the morning and can't sleep again. You seem to dream all night long and sometimes have disturbing dreams.( sleeping pill addict)

You feel that life has/is 'passing you by.'( very quickly)

You may have physical aches and pains which appear to have no physical cause, such as back pain.( back pain yes)

Miami

As i had been on a mission to take Photographs for www.shipparade.com i was disappointed to find out we were not staying by the port in Miami but 15 kilometres inland.
However on approach to landing we flew over the port of Miami and i managed to take a Photograph of Carnival Imagination, not a bad attempt if i say so myself.