Never Being loved again!!!

When you get older you realise that you fall into a pattern of life, things may not be rosy, sex may not be great but the fact that you may never be loved again is quite soul destroying.
I work with people who have been in relationships for years and never tire of each other, they miss each other when apart and never dream of having sex with anyone else, they build a life together and live for each other.
This is what i pine for really, stability, a certain bit of comfort and a travel companion who i can share the wonders of the world with hand in hand.
My life although attached is lonely and secluded, i have no real friends, the last time a friend visited me here in my house was about 8 years ago...that is dreadful and i had to re-calculate but yes, it's right or it could be even 9yrs.
Days are lonely, nights are long, trips are reclusive and again lonely and i have no hobbies, no interests, no friends, no one to do anything with even if i could.
Damn life is hard....i am so pleased for Mum and Dad , yet another cruise booked and paid for for them, and they are in a superior suite with balcony sailing on 12th September and from Newcastle, cruise ships frequenting North Shields a lot not and i am not talking about ferries, but real cruise ships, this means no flying to the boat,limited driving to the boat and most of all as much luggage as you want to take with you.