Famous Passengers

Being a huge Tennis fan for years i was more than pleased to have Rafael Nadal sitting opposite me for take off and landing and also to be serving him, he signed autographs for passengers and took time to have a picture with me, he is not like a celebrity and very shy and unassuming but obviously loves his Tennis very much indeed....something tells me he would prefer to compete without an audience as he is so shy....

Coronation Streets Schmichael

It is nearly a year since we lost dear Megan and being a fan of Coronation Street it is so hard for me to watch poor Chesney lose Schmichael, he has been in the show for many years and i know it is just acting but it is so close to what i went through it is like a reconstruction all over again.....the scenes of the death have not been shown on TV yet and i do not know how i will react to it all.

Driving North to South

This can be a sad time for me, i say goodbye to my parents and drive the long journey home, i leave behind everything i love and drive to a place that although has been home for 24years+ it has never actually been "home" as my real home is not here but in the north.
The south is full of bad memories, back stabbing ex friends and a constant reminder of red, white and blue flying over my home.
I have a new circle of friends but once again i do not have a "best" friend, never have and doubt i ever will now....these friendships start at school and carry on through life, they don't start at my age, however my new job has produced some decent people who i like to call friends but we do not live in each others pockets so to speak!!! We all have our privacy, and i do not talk about intimate relationship details with anyone, i think we need that at times, someone to bounce off, offload onto and clear your head with, bottling things up can lead to illness and stress which i have seen.

Convinced i have PTSD ( Post traumatic stress disorder)..what happened to me is haunting me daily....im scared, panicked, stressed, and as long as i live here it could happen again.....i need to get away, escape or indeed visit someone who will help me recover. I don't seem that bad when i look in the mirror but others seem to think i am different, changed and i have no idea how.