Why?

I ask myself this question a lot, Why??

Why is it i appear as the life a soul of the party but put me alone somewhere and i sob uncontrollably, maybe i have a fear of being unable to show my emotions openly, or don't like people to see me upset as i hate all the, cuddles, rubs, conversations, and remarks like " don't worry it will be fine".

I always say the time you cannot bare to listen to Radio one, and you switch to Radio 2 you are getting older, i love smooth radio, magic fm or radio 2, other stations play music now which i have no idea what it is.

Today was an embarrassing day, i went to the Apple Store in New York for an I-pad as much cheaper than in uk and all i needed was a travel adaptor so convert the voltage when at home. I got to the check out and my boxed i-pad and cover was placed in front of me, the bankers card was however declined after two attempts, i stayed at the check out and called th bank number on reverse of the card, after entering card numbers, asked questions like mothers maiden name, date of birth, address, postcode, i failed to name a Direct debit amount and date that it comes out of my account so the Nice Indian man in some call centre in Bombay cancelled my card so i can now buy nothing and need to go home to my branch with two forms of I.D. so the card can be reactivated, such a pain in the arse as i was only spending just over £300, you would think i was spending thousands.
The cashier in apple store did say it happens a lot as when someone steals a card their first port of call is the Apple Store so everyone around was looking at me like some credit card fraudster!!

I got out of their, one half of me was embarrassed and upset the other was angry,i will now try the apple store in Arizona next week, that will confuse Barclays.